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I laid here awake all night except for the 4 hours in the ER but that's beside the point. Honestly I've struggled with a sense of belonging. Yet I am very outgoing. I'm a people person. Yet I've found myself to be a people pleaser a lot of the times. Most of that stems from my mom's perfectionism. I was afraid to breath in her house or in the car. I was afraid of making a fingerprint on something. Anyhow back to my laying here. God is the only one we have to please. Why do we feel like He's not important enough to us for us to simply ask Him is this what I need to do. We make it so hard on ourselves and beat our selfs up over the wrong shoes, wrong outfit, our hair being worn a certain way. Why? I don't know you tell me. I myself have struggled with that and I still do. I look around church thinking wow everyone is dressed so up their hair is perfect. But then I ask myself what's going on in the inside. Do they dress that way because they really do feel good about themselves and their lives? Or are they hurting so bad that the outward look is a mask of what is really going on in the inside? We can't judge people by saying they are so pretty and well kept together. I mean, are they really? It does matter to God how to dress with modesty, but its even more important to Him how we feel inside. Do you think we should hide in shame or decide to overcome things. "Behold I have overcome the world" God says. Who are we to say that we can't when He has given us the only tool we will need. The BIBLE!!!!! We don't need to have alcohol, drugs, food, sex, pornography, etc. Try looking in the mirror just once and say "hi beautiful you look great today". Then go do something nice for yourself. It doesn't matter what you think about you. It only matters what God thinks of you. He loves us unconditionally!!!!!!!! Isn't that kind of love amazing? So with that I will close by saying you are beautiful whoever you are.